Tales of the Aggronaut - Tam Stole My Luck - 2018-09-24
This morning I talk about the #Diablo3 Season 15 journey so far and how I have just not had any luck getting the drops I need. I also talk a bit about chilling out on the Paladin Alliance side and leveling through that content.
The end result is that I just try to figure out what to do about it alone, because I don't have anywhere to talk about it.
Probably what's driving me to vent about it semi-randomly on the internet.
I can see the mental stability that my coupled friends have, and I remember having that too and how much better a person I was when I had that stability instead of the energy-draining void of dating.
I miss it, and I miss the person I've been in the past. He was a better guy.
It's especially difficult since the vast majority of my friends are either in long-standing stable relationships or have expressed precisely zero interest in romantic relationships ever, so the feeling of isolation and not having anyone to talk to is high.
There's only so much "that sucks, I wish I could help" one can hear before it gets to be a frustrating refrain.
It doesn't help what "woe is me, I'm single" is an incredibly tired cliché to hear someone complain about.
Dating is exhausting and it's a process I'm both badly suited to and dislike. There's no sensible way to date (in the US at least), so it's primarily apps.
Swipe apps feel super shallow, but apps where I send messages are massive black holes of effort.
I have a lot of trouble approaching people without knowing if me doing so is imposing on them in some unwanted way, so my default is always to not approach. Swipe apps at least give me some confirmation of interest, but it's tiring.
Former game dev, still thinks a lot about games.
Very lazy foodie.
Extremely bad at labeling himself.
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